Email to Ben and KoriAnn
You're just fine! I have my days like that occasionally. I've been hard at work studying the scriptures on what I need to do to fix this impatient problem and then I narrowed it down to something: I lack trust in God. I had a neat, moving experience this weekend. I came across Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not into thine own understanding. In all ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths" I read that and started getting so emotional because to think that I, for even one second, doubted that our Father in Heaven would put me in places that I needed to be. Last year was a complete 360 for me, and that is how I know that I can trust the Lord, because the second I did, my life took a miraculous turn for the better. After reading that, I came across Ecclesiastes 3:1&11 "To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: He hath made every thing beautiful in His time: also, he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end" which then led me to D&C 122:7 "Know thou, my son, that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good" pretty neat study if you ask me! The scriptures are great and I love all the treasures that lie in not only the bible, but especially the Book of Mormon. I bore my testimony on it on Tuesday in a meeting and got so teary-eyed, because if the Book of Mormon wasn't true, we wouldn't feel the love we feel for the prophet Thomas S. Monson, and the thought that people don't believe he is a prophet baffles me. God is the same yesterday, today, and forever, and if he didn't call prophets, that would contradict His own ways, which would make Him cease to be God. The logic is all there, and the book of Mormon is that proof that people strive for. They're so busy trying to disprove it, when it's right in front of their faces that Joseph Smith saw God and Jesus Christ, prophets are called on the earth today, the priesthood is back, and the Gospel of Jesus Christ has been restored once again to the earth. I'm very passionate about this subject and hope you are too.
I love being on a mission very much because every second I can devote to other people and allow myself to build my relationship with Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father and steer every thought on how to become more submissive, which President Hobbs says is Christ's greatest attribute.
Thank you for emailing me, I'm happy to hear Ben is so close to graduating! I bet he loved spring break. And best of luck with the car searching; I remember those days, yikes.
I love you!
Elder Shawn Lyle Bennion